To be 100% honest "Weight" has always been an issue for me, it's been the only thing I've know and from a very early age I learnt to suppress feeling, emotions and really most things with food, a learnt behaviour that I used through out my life and only understanding now just how that connection harmed and healed me in many ways.
So my weight loss through wellness journey began Jan 31st 2011 a date I'll never forget I remember walking up the few stairs to sign up at a gym gasping for air and feeling like death, I was totally done with my life or lack of life and done with being on this diet roller coaster, I don't know what was different about this time actually I do I truly wanted to do it and do it for me not for my husband, my family or for a special occasion I wanted to feel alive, healthy and actually smile and mean it, I'm a huge believer in once your mind is ready the rest will follow and every other attempt I was trying to talk my mind into being ready.
This wasn't a diet I told myself this very thing day one this is how you are going to live life for now on, making changes bit by bit and just keep putting one foot in front of the other and Boom thats exactly what I did, was I perfect hells no, did I fall off the horse yep several times, but I got back on and rode that horse like my life depended on it!! It's all about balance, I got to understand my body and what it needs to function properly and that is something you will never find being on a diet because you are following someone else's ideals of how you should eat, you stop listening to your own body and its needs, never have I felt deprived or have I wanted to go back to my old ways of eating crap to make myself happy, nourishing my body makes me happy these days.
My weight loss was slow it wasn't a quick fix by any means and teamed with health issues like PCOS, Endometritis, hormonal issues, an under-active thyroid and spinal issues (not to mention the mental aspects of depression and anxiety I faced daily) I was already up against it and for many years I used these health issues as an excuse not to lose weight, yes having these issues makes it harder to shed weight but honestly I knew that I wasn't looking after myself what so ever and all of these health issues were made much worse by me carrying so much excess weight so losing weight really was my only hope for health and wellness.
Through my weight loss journey I discovered a real passion for my health, what I needed as an individual to be healthy and not to be defined by a diet or a one size fits all program or solution. I am different to others and so should my approach to my own weight loss and wellness, Through this new found passion I've become a nutrition and wellness coach with my focus on fixing health from inside out, after so many years of looking for a miracle to "fix me" I came to realise that I didn't need fixing, I needed proper nourishment, movement and most importantly a desire for real change and acknowledging what is really making me eat the foods that aren't serving me, without it nothing you try will last it's that simple. I spent years taking my health for granted and abusing food to hide myself and my feelings, so the whole process was more about dealing with so many issues I kept hidden with junk and comfort foods not only just food and exercise.
My weight loss journey has had it's fair share of up's and down's, I've lost people in my life, I've had health issues and I've had lots of my own demon's to deal with and you know what, I wouldn't change a single thing, everything has brought me new experiences, inner strength and courage to keep my head up high and keep fighting!
Everyone will have a different journey, this is just a brief look into my own weight loss through wellness journey, go ahead and start your very own journey xx