Travel, travel, travel!!! Nothing makes me smile bigger than experiencing other cultures, the way they live, interact, dress and eat, the feeling of embarking into the unknown, leaving all creature comforts at home and forgetting who I am or what I do on a daily basis!
Photography, trying new foods, meeting new friends, bonding closer to old friends, experiencing all that place has to offer and my favourite part ADVENTURE!!! are a few reasons why I love to travel, it leaves you with something that money can't buy, it's a gift that enriches your soul and fills your heart with an abundance of gratitude xx
It's hard for me to think what I missed out on for so many years after finding my love for travel. For years I couldn't even drive past the airport without shaking, the very thought of getting on a plane would be enough for me to start to get Anxiety let alone actually step onto a plane. It wasn't only planes it was actually any form of transport unless I was driving or someone who I trusted was driving I didn't want a bar of it. I don't know when, how or why It started but it had a complete hold of me and my whole life.
FEAR!!! was in the drivers seat of my entire life, I feared everything and I mean everything! Fear knew my weaknesses and it played on them like a BITCH! Fear stole my life, it made doing the most basic things a battle with my mind on a daily basis, I over thought every situation until fear got it's own way and kept me hidden, kept me scared, kept me depressed and kept me gaining weight.
What was I afraid of?? This is something I don't have the answer to, I didn't have an event or a reason to feel fearful, I just did and once I felt the feeling of fear it snowballed until I couldn't recognise myself anymore, I created this bubble which I resided in for over a decade. It was like a dark hole that just got deeper and deeper and the weight kept piling on as a result, where did that once fearless go girl??
I'm back bitches!!!! Wooooo!!! Sorry I had to make this piece light and happy again because this is a battle that Nat won!! Nat 1 fear 0 :) in your face FEAR!!! That's for robbing me of doing crazy shit in my 20's!!! Well it's better late than never I guess here I am In my 30's doing the crazy shit I missed out on!!!! Yayyyyyy!!!
Today I head off to Sth America I've had a picture of Machu Picchu in Peru hanging on my wall for years, not really knowing how are when I'll get there, but here I go, Friday 10th June 2016 and away I go. What does this mean to me?? It's so much more than just sight seeing, experiencing different cultures and tasting strange and exotic foods, It means that FEAR doesn't control my life on a daily basis anymore, it means that I've over come some pretty huge obstacles and with doing so I'm actually alive and living my life, and that my friends is FN priceless!!
Sure I'm a little nervous, am I really doing this??? Hells to the yeah I'm doing this and I embrace the fear I'm feeling right now, it no longer steers my life, I feel it, I acknowledge it and I say Thank you!! Thank you for showing up, but I've got shit to do so you can take the back seat for now on!! BOOOMMMMMMM hehehe see ya beautiful peeps!! I'll be back with some Sth American Inspo xx