Excuse my french everyone but that's how I'd describe how I'm feeling today :) This girl needs random adventures and that's exactly what she got, chasing waterfalls and rainbows, freezing my A$$ off, getting drenched, talking to random strangers and being out doors, that's my idea of perfection!!
However before my lil adventure started today I went through a bit of process, a process I'm sure most of you reading this go through yourself, I like to call this the "I SHOULD" process! You know this process when all of the "I SHOULD'S" get in the way of what you truly want and need to do for yourself! Mine went a little like this today, I should do my washing, house work, study, create some magic in the kitchen for you all to enjoy, get my book and workshop dead lines done and the list went on and on and onnnnnn! It actually took about an hour to convince myself what I truly SHOULD of done today, and thank GOD listened, I had one epic day!!!
I SHOULD, I SHOULD, I SHOULD.......... Who else out there suffers with this saga??? Why don't we honour our own needs, why must we sacrifice the things our soul yearns for to have that perfectly clean house, to work non stop, to be everything for everyone else but actually showing up for ourselves or is it just an excuse we tell ourselves as to why we think our needs and want's aren't important, I honestly don't know but I don't like it!
Now I'm not saying to live in a pig sty, dismiss your responsibilities & daily duties or go run away with the circus (How ever tempting the running away with the circus sounds to you hehehe) but I am saying maybe making memories and living a little for yourself SHOULD find it's way into your life. It's not being selfish, reckless, irresponsible or any other BS label you or others would like to put on it, it's about carving out time to do things that bring you JOY!!! it's about honouring your needs like you do the needs for everyone else and everything else in your life!
My advice, make one of the "I SHOULD'S" that are floating around in that busy lil mind of yours "I SHOULD" take that walk in nature, go and watch a movie, take myself out for lunch or sit around in my Pj's and have a lazy morning or what ever it is that will bring YOU joy! Without exception, without guilt and without attaching another "I SHOULD" at the end of it! Because I can tell you if I die tonight I'm not going to look back on my last day here and say thank god my house is clean and perfect! I'm going to say I'm happy as F@%& that I had that adventure!! Booommmm xx