So for many years I was know for my cupcakes, cakes and cookies, not to be modest but they were pretty amazing even if I do say so myself, when I was larger it never really bothered me to be surrounded by chocolate, butter cream, and anything sugary actually, the more sugar the better, I loved eating my creations, I loved the joy it brought to others and I loved how it allowed me to be creative. What I couldn't acknowledge was how my love of cakes & cake making wasn't helping me what so ever to live the life I was wanting, a life of being healthy and to lose weight.
Cake making wasn't my full time job it was something I did on the side and I guess that's why I didn't see it as a huge issue, until I got busier with my orders, more orders meant more cake testing, more left overs and being a self confessed sugar addict that meant my weight loss wasn't really going to plan, everyone who cooks knows that you've got to test your cooking before it goes out to your buyers, it's a fact (Don't judge me! hehe :) ).
So I had a choice, settle for the weight I lost or let go of what was holding me back from achieving my goals and what did I truly want more? Well I think you know now what I wanted more! So good bye naughty cake maker and helloooooo whole food and raw food creator and a new love and passion was birthed.
With all honesty what I create these days are far more satisfying, when I want treats I can eat them without guilt, without filling my body up with sugar and junk and what's even better than that other's love it too. A very large part of me not wanting to let go of being a naughty cake maker was letting people down, I know my creations brought happiness into many people's lives so this was a huge step for me, I loved making others happy, but if I look at it now It was just an investment in myself, my health and what I truly needed in life. Knowing that my creations still make people happy, are healthy for them and for myself, to me is that same happiness I used to get from creating my naughty creations.
Sometimes on our weight loss journey it's about letting go, letting go of other's expectations of you, letting go of making everyone else happy, letting go of the pressure you put on yourself and letting go of things that aren't serving your dreams! By letting go of things that aren't serving you you are providing room in your life for something more amazing and special and this is something I've found being a whole food and raw food creator, I just had to let go!
My favourite quote ever by Albert Einstein- Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results! Booooommmm, well said Old chap, well said :) xx